HER AIM IS;;ATTENTIONMONSTER
you'll be screaming;;rachel psst.she has a;; VAGiNA
get her presents on;;Oct/18/89
SHE LIKESTHiS ONE GUY she listens to;; as i lay dying, taking back sunday, bright eyes, kane hodder, blood brothers, she died in june, gatsby's american dream, something corporate, the zutons, violent femmes, the used, thursday, weezer, death cab, snow patrol, sex pistols, the ramones, the hives, hope on horizon, a subtle car crash, cory french c, until september, wax heart pocketbook, atreyu, hawthorne heights, a beautiful smile, rufio, the junior varsity, a movie romance, june, matchbook romance, at the drive in, saosin, dead poetic, the early november,, my chemical romance, this providence, death cab for cutie, on paper thin walls, jet, jimmy eat world, postal service, motion city soundtrack, midnight aria, forgive durden, surrounded by lions, up falls down, le tirge, brand new, rem, glassjaw, ex models, bury your dead, fallout boy, interpol, hellogoodbye, funeral for a friend, bjork, cursive, billy idol ♥, coldplay, radio, radiohead, mars volta, oasis, rufio, fear before the march of flames, coheed and cambria, story of the year, silverstein, the futureleads, finch, hendrix, showbread, etc.
her friendsaarto ♥ angelique ♥ashlee ♥kelsey ♥funny bitch ♥gladys-izzle ♥zini boo boo ♥kylie ♥lexi ♥phyllis ♥homie izzle krystal ♥hot deng sexy bert ♥ julian ♥ my husband ♥ ♥ ♥ my SHASHA ♥ ♥ ♥her groups puddles are my love E>
Matt's Groupies about her.
i don't like it when people constatly talk about things that i can't relate with and i don't like people i can't have a conversation with w/out asking all these questions like "what's your favorite color?" or "do you like anybody?". don't tell me your sad pitiful stories about your life because i really don't need to hear it. i have enough of my own thank you very much. and first impressions aren't really my strong point, i make myself look stupid or i may seem like a bitch but hey, the next time i hang out with you i'll be more comforttable around you or something. pfft. like i know. im sarcastic all the time and i never talk about how im feeling and why, because im ashamed of what i feel most of the time and because im just quiet about those kinds of things. im smart when i want to be. im constatly paranoid about being left alone to fend on my own, and im very insecure about my body and face and the impression i make on others. im vain. but not shallow, im not "just another one of those pretty faces but has a personality of a rock" kinds of people. i dance in front of the mirror and make faces when im bored. im a hopeless romantic, stubborn, rude and i hate being told im wrong. i have to be exepted by everyone because it makes me feel like i belong. i think im the only ugly person surrounded by all these pretty people. i make bad decisions when im rushed on making one, so don't rush me. im random. <3
Interests:as i lay dying, taking back sunday, bright eyes, kane hodder, blood brothers, she died in june, gatsby's american dream, something corporate, the zutons, violent femmes, the used, thursday, weezer, death cab, snow patrol, sex pistols, the ramones, the hives, hope on horizon, a subtle car crash, cory french c, until september, wax heart pocketbook, atreyu, hawthorne heights, a beautiful smile, rufio, the junior varsity, a movie romance, june, matchbook romance, at the drive in, saosin, dead poetic, the early november, my chemical romance, this providence, death cab for cutie, on paper thin walls, jet, jimmy eat world, postal service, motion city soundtrack, midnight aria, forgive durden, surrounded by lions, up falls down, le tirge, brand new, rem, glassjaw, ex models, bury your dead, fallout boy, interpol, hello goodbye, funeral for a friend, bjork, cursive, billy idol♥, coldplay, radio, radiohead, mars volta, oasis, rufio,fear before the march of flames, coheed and cambria, Expertise:story of the year, silverstein, the futureleads, finch,
It's now 5:45 am and I still haven't gotten any sleep. im anxious to finish the book, the perks of being a wallflower. crystal recommended this book to me because she liked it, and thought that I might enjoy it aswell. I do. I think I've cried at least four times throughout the whole book. I guess i'm just emotional like that, and things hit me harder than most people. oh well. I guess I'll just have to get used to it, I guess, I just wish that I would be tired and want to go to sleep. But there are things to do like clean my room, that I must do.
Things in my life haven't really been a basket of roses for me and I resent that. I know that there was nothing that I could do to change it, nor could i do anything to make it better, so I guess i'll just have to get over it on my own. It's horrible to lose family members and friends, and there's nothing you can do to make it better, and you can't wish it away, as much as you'd want to, and you can't wallow in your self pity and sadness because that's just no good. You're going to have to pick yourself up and move on. so far, i've smoked about a pack and a half within one night, and I know it's going to catch up with me later on. I guess i'll have to deal with that too. people are telling me to quit smoking, among other things. but I don't want to quite yet, just because im too dependant on my addictions at this moment.
I want my friend to stop hiding and come visit me, and say that he was kidding, and that he was never really gone.
so then we can guy that big house we've always wanted, and adopt those kids we wanted as well, and live our lives as best friends who are just too in love to let go. I hope i'm not writing too much. this is just how I feel at this particular moment in time. at 5:45 in the morning on a saturday. with an unfinished book to read and a messy room. good night, or good morning, or good whatever.
